had some lingering relationship issues I finally got worked out, and I
was stressed about getting two traffic tickets in three weeks, after a
clean driving record for two years. B/ Things kind of blew up again
over the weekend, but I did get some relaxing time with IceSpark on
Saturday, and Mad
Men-watching time with StephanieBCl on Sunday, so at least the
weekend ended well.
Last Sunday morning I drove Pandara home from Mishiell and Eldari’s
party. We collapsed in bed and slept for a few hours. I got up long
enough to find out my evening plans got cancelled, and then went to
bed for a few more hours. When we finally dragged ourselves out of
bed, Pandara and I met HotaruGirl for dinner at Some Guys Pizza, and
then I went over to IceSpark’s to hang out and talk. After I went
home HotaruGirl eventually joined me, and we both played on our
laptops before bed.
Last Monday I was tired and got a traffic ticket on my way to work
that left me grumpy most of the day. When I arrived at Pandara’s I
joined her immediately for another three-hour nap. Eventually we got
up and met her new friend at the Metro for the IYK slosh. Everyone
there was very friendly, and I had a good time meeting people with a
minimum of my usual social anxiety. When we got back to Pandara’s we
looked at pictures of her that I had on my laptop, and then we cuddled
up to sleep.
Tuesday I was feeling emotionally crappy all day, so I skipped derby
practice and went to dinner with IceSpark at the Red Lion instead. I
felt better after I ate, and so I headed home to wait for
StephanieBCl. When she arrived we watched a few episodes of Mad
Men and then talked about things that have been bothering
StephanieBCl. Once she was feeling better, we bought one
more episode of Mad Men from Amazon on Demand, but by that
point StephanieBCl was dozing off, so we called it a night.
Wednesday morning LilDomino and HotaruGirl arrived at my apartment and
woke StephanieBCl and me up – LilDomino’s car had died. HotaruGirl
had to head to Evansville, so I let LilDomino drive me to work and
take my car. LilDomino picked me back up from work at 6:30, and was
Hungry! We went to Yats on Mass Ave and then headed back to
her house, where we lay down for “a moment,” and passed out for three
hours. We woke up when Pandara home, and joined her in the living
room. LilDomino and I played on our laptops while Pandara hung out
with Salamander42, and LilDomino watched Hell’s Kitchen while I
organized photos on my hard drive, being far too tired for much else.
Thursday was quiet at work, and Trmo dropped by for lunch. Because I
only have a half hour, Trmo and I usually only have time for coffee
when she drops by, but it’s been nice having a chance to catch up with
her, especially since I don’t get to see her often during the week.
After work I went over to IceSpark’s. It was kind of a bonus night
since we were going to see each other again this past weekend, and so
after dinner we took it easy and relaxed.
Friday night HotaruGirl came over. She had some bad news which upset
me, but it was good to hear it from her rather than from someone else.
By the time we finished talking her blood sugar was low, so we
hurried out for food. After dinner, she was sleepy, so we had a quiet
night. She hung out and snuggled with me while I caught up more on
season three of Mad Men. I’ve been missing HotaruGirl so I’d
hoped we could have had a more involved evening together, but since
she was tired and I was depressed I just watched Amazon on Demand
while she slept.
Saturday morning HotaruGirl and I got into an argument that was ugly
but served to clear the air about things that had been bugging us for
months. I’m hoping it will lead to a better relationship in the
future. When HotaruGirl left, IceSpark came over and we went out to
Le Peep for breakfast. We spent the day lying around watching Transformers,
and after dinner at Olive Garden we returned and played Icewind
Dale II until IceSpark was sleepy and we went to bed.
I’ve been depressed and stressed lately. I feel like a Mad Men
character – I have everything going for me on the surface, but I’m
finding it hard to be happy. I’ve dealt with a lot of change lately,
and it’s taking me time to get used to it. I feel like I’ve lost more
than I’ve gained, and whether that’s true or not there’s nothing I can
do besides accept things as-is. I appreciate those in my life who
have been supportive… now I need to work harder to value more what I
have instead of worrying what I don’t.
“Gozer the Traveler. He will come in one of the pre-chosen forms.
During the rectification of the Vuldrini, the traveler came as a large
and moving Torg! Then, during the third reconciliation of the last of
the McKetrick supplicants, they chose a new form for him: that of a
giant Slor! Many Shuvs and Zuuls knew what it was to be roasted in the
depths of the Slor that day, I can tell you!”
-- Louis Tully, Ghost Busters