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My emotional state continues to be up and down. I’m surrounded by
wonderful people, but a ton of crap is going on in others’ lives that
I have no control over and for which I can provide little help.
Things have settled in my relationships, but not exactly where I’d
like them to, so the process of acceptance is a depressing one. I’m
trying to be there for people when I can, and to enjoy the good times,
but whenever I get a chance to think too much my mood crashes.

Last Sunday I slept until 3 and then woke up to breakfast with
LilDomino and HotaruGirl. We had a lazy day of hanging out playing on
our laptops and then LilDomino and HotaruGirl made a yummy dinner of
chicken and asparagus. LilDomino worked on a memorial website for her
grandmother while I caught up with friends and lovers about their
weekend. LilDomino and I were feeling a little down by the end of the
night, and HotaruGirl wasn’t exactly feeling very amorous either, but
the three of us managed to pull each other out of our respective funks
and have a good evening nonetheless.

Last Monday morning LilDomino, HotaruGirl, and I went out for
breakfast and then LilDomino went into to work and HotaruGirl headed
back to Evansville. I went to IceSpark’s and took a nap with her
before driving up to meet Mishiell for dinner. Dinner with Mishiell
was pleasant, and although we still have no idea when we’ll hang out
while I’m on the night schedule, I’m hoping we’ll figure something
out. After dinner I went back to IceSpark’s and we snuggled and
watched Castle (a new guilty pleasure) and Dollhouse
(which I love already).

Last Tuesday was St. Patrick’s Day, so I was worried about being late
for work because of the damned parade (I work downtown). I left
myself extra time, but besides having to run over some revelers, I
managed to get in early. I waited 15 minutes to clock in at 1:45,
only to realize later that they moved me back to the 1:30 shift this
week (*facepalm*). Luckily I’d mentioned to my boss when I got there
that I was “early” so she knew I was actually there. After work I had
no plans so I went home to MUX.

Last Wednesday morning I went to bed way too late, so when one of my
managers called and offered e-time I accepted it and went into work a
little late but much more rested. After work I met LilDomino at Brbe
and Erro’s where they were hosting a game night. LilDomino and I hung
out there, playing Apples to Apples and watching YouTube videos and
Onion News. When it got late LilDomino and I left, picking up food
and heading back to my apartment for The Daily Show and sleep.

Thursday morning LilDomino and I got up and had Le Peep for breakfast
before she went to class and I went into work. At work they were
giving away E-time like candy, so I had the rare opportunity to leave
work early. I picked up Pandara and drove her to her apartment so she
could see her boyfriend and pack for her Friday night date. After that
Pandara and I then went to Denny’s for a late-night dinner. By the
time we got back to my apartment it was late enough though that we
were OK with just going to bed.

Friday night after work I hurried home so I could watch the
third-to-last episode of BSG before going over to IceSpark’s to
watch the two-hour finale. I got off too late to watch the finale the
first time it played, but luckily Sci Fi played it again later in the
evening so I still got to watch it that night. They decided to focus
a lot of the ending on character instead of action, so I can see how
some people might find it a little slow, but I’m generally satisfied
with how they wrapped everything up.

Saturday night IceSpark and I went to a roller derby bout between
Indianapolis and St. Louis. The Naptown Roller Girls played the Arch
Rivals Roller Girls and it was a pretty exciting game to watch. The
ARRG were ahead 12 points by half-time, and were able to win 93 to 60.
After the bout IceSpark and I went back to my apartment to clean, and
wound up arranging my living room and organizing things in such a way
that with luck I’ll be able to someday make some order out of the chaos.

Sunday morning IceSpark and I didn’t get to bed until almost dawn, so
IceSpark slept until 2 PM and I slept until four. When I woke up
IceSpark was going through paperwork in my living room, helping me
organize and get rid of things I no longer need. I joined in to help
her clean, until finally we got hungry and went out to Olive Garden.
We’d intended to go back to her house after dinner, but wound up back
at my place for more cleaning.

Monday was IceSpark’s birthday, so we went out for breakfast before I
had to go into work. At work I was depressed – too much going on in
my life and in the lives of people important to be that I can’t
control. After work I went back to IceSpark’s, where she’d made us
yummy chicken burgers. We were going to play SingStar,
but I’d left my PlayStation controller at home, so we wound up
cuddling and watching Bones instead.

Tuesday night I was allowed to leave work a little early again so I
grabbed some food for LilDomino and me and went to her house to MUX
while she did homework and studied for a test Friday. On the MUX I
was able to get in on the end of a Decepticon raid TP run my SydneyGB.
Since IceSpark had Snoop on, I logged on Browning, and we had a fun
time being unhelpful non-combatants on the sidelines while Nighthawk
and Skywarp beat each other to paint.

Tonight I’m getting together with Pandara, and it should be fun as
long as I can stay awake – my alarm went off at 7 AM and I had a hard
time getting back to sleep. This weekend I’m going down to Evansville
to see HotaruGirl, and my mom for her birthday. With luck LilDomino
will get to come with me so the two of us can hang out with HotaruGirl
and her friends. My mom is also depressed and doesn’t really want
company, but I’m hoping if I’m right there in town I’ll be able to
persuade her to at least venture out for dinner.



"For NASA, space is still a high priority."
- former Vice-President Dan Quayle

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mishiell
Mar. 26th, 2009 01:42 am (UTC)
dollhouse
since i have been doing mostly the same thing for the last 5 years my job has become, shall we say, monotonous? :) anyway, found out the new system lets me get hulu, and just got done watching all of dollhouse.... today. pilot was ok, but the show drastically improves as the story continues. total thumbs up!

hugs!
bzero
Mar. 27th, 2009 07:07 am (UTC)
Re: dollhouse
Yeah, I think the network futzed too much with the pilot, but the series itself does seem to be getting better. I probably could watch it at work, but I have too many nosy co-workers who would bitch to someone and get me in trouble.

Miss you! Need to kidnap you so we can watch Firefly sometime!
ariadnemarie
Mar. 26th, 2009 05:15 am (UTC)
I don't know how you find the energy to do all of this!
bzero
Mar. 27th, 2009 07:07 am (UTC)
heh. Neither do I!

Sooo sleepy...
hotarugirl
Mar. 26th, 2009 01:02 pm (UTC)
Yay!
i can't wait to see you this weekend, Dahlink!
*happydance*

(Boo to the depression parts... but you know that!)
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bzero
Apr. 6th, 2009 07:08 am (UTC)
Thanks, honey. Loved seeing you this weekend!
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