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Week in Review - March.14

This week continued the trend of suck plaguing my month year. Some overhanging things got resolved for better or worse, and overall life got better towards the week, but there is still a lot going on that I’m just going to have to hunker down, weather, and hope will eventually improve. I did get to see Jeso for the first time since 2002 and HotaruGirl for her birthday, so my week has definitely had its bright points. I’m hoping next week will be better overall. I could do with less drama and change.

Last Sunday morning LilDomino’s dad called her and told her that her grandmother, who LilDomino was very close to, was doing very badly health-wise and might not make it through the day. I cancelled my plans with Jeso and went over to spend the day with LilDomino to keep her company. She took a long nap and then we went out to have dinner with IceSpark. LilDomino called her parents and found out her grandmother had died, so we called HotaruGirl and I held LilDomino while she cried.

Monday night is usually my MUX night, but I got to IceSpark’s so late that by the time I logged on only R_55 was on, and he wasn’t very talkative (although he did pass along news that D3@ was doing well). R_55 said he was just popping in to see how we were doing, which confirmed my feeling that he isn’t really around anymore. I need to ask Cawh to have him turn over passwords, etc, for things if he’s not going to be an active admin. After logging off the MUX, IceSpark and I lay down to snuggle and watch Bones.

Tuesday I had a rough day at work, compounded by finding out that what I thought was a discussion of possibilities with Cassiopia the weekend before was actual a break-up and I didn’t realize it. Besides feeling like an idiot, it was better in some ways to have things officially end instead of hanging over me, which was stressing me out. After work I went over to LilDomino’s to take care of her, but she wound up taking care of me instead. I still couldn’t sleep, so I wound up lay awake depressed until dawn before finally passing out.

Wednesday I was still feeling emotionally crappy, so LilDomino came over to keep me company while got my notes together for Saturday’s D&D game. I was sad about breaking up with Cassiopia, but having some resolution was at least helping me start to adjust to the new paradigm. My ongoing troubles with Mishiell are causing me more actual stress, since she and I haven’t had a chance to work on things since our last talk and with the mandatory overtime she’s had at work, this week didn’t work out either.

Thursday I was feeling a little better. I scheduled dinner with Mishiell for Monday, and knowing when I’d see her again helped my mood considerably. I hadn’t plans after work, so I told IceSpark she could come over and hang out. I installed tax software she lent me and then IceSpark snuggled me while we played Kingdom of Loathing until three in the morning. IceSpark helped me catch up on quests on which I was behind, and it was a wonderfully relaxing and silly way to spend the evening.

Friday after work I finally met up with Jeso and we went over to ElBanditoRojo’s for a late-evening game night. DRAKEFENWICK and Jobe joined us, and they played Guitar Hero before we moved to the dining room to play Infernal Contraption and Fluxx. I was worried about dragging someone to game night I haven’t seen in seven years, but it actually turned out to be a lot of fun. We hung out until about 2 AM and then headed back to my apartment to sleep.

Saturday Jeso and I hung out and had breakfast while waiting for HotaruGirl to arrive from Evansville. When HotaruGirl arrived, IceSpark and LilDomino joined us and we got ready to role-play. When DRAKEFENWICK, Jogr, ElBanditoRojo and Jobe arrived we had a fun game of D&D. We lost some players to a conflicting Ides of March party, but I had a great time nonetheless. After the game a few of us went to Denny’s and then HotaruGirl, LilDomino and I went back to LilDomino’s to snuggle and sleep.

Today I slept until 3, and then LilDomino and HotaruGirl woke me up with breakfast. We’re having a fun lazy day playing on our laptops, which is a great way to spend a Sunday. They made a yummy dinner of chicken and asparagus, and we might head back to bed soon to watch The Big Bang Theory. Some underlying issues were threatening to ruin my good mood earlier, but I’m trying hard to work through them and stay positive and enjoy HotaruGirl’s presence while we have her here. As IceSpark pointed out, I had a great weekend surrounded by wonderful people, and I need to appreciate what I have instead of worrying about everything else.




“It's time to prove to your friends that you're worth a damn. Sometimes that means dying, sometimes it means killing a whole lot of people.” -- SIN CITY

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teal_cuttlefish
Mar. 16th, 2009 04:11 am (UTC)
You have a very busy social life. I can imagine it can be hard to keep the funk from one relationship from sneaking over into other social encounters. HotaruGirl is quite right, though -- it's best to stay present in your current situation and enjoy that, or your funk could taint some of the things that are going far better for you.

Not that it's easy to do that, mind. I had a third relationship for about 3 years. Eventually, we each let the problems from outside the relationship seep in, and that did end the relationship. Hope you can find a way to keep the sucky parts contained. (In our case, one of the sucky parts was neither of us could find a job, which is really a hard one to contain.)
bzero
Mar. 16th, 2009 04:26 am (UTC)
Yeah. I'm definitely doing a terrible job keeping my concerns about one relationship taint my time with other people. I've been accused before of over-compartmentalizing, but in this case I'd love to be better at just locking away worries about things I can't control, and focusing on the good in my life right now. Unfortunately I'm very bad at dealing with things I can't actively work on, so I just kind of simmer until I get a chance to accidentally do something, and then sometimes overreact because by then I have so much stress built up I blow. Bleh.
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bzero
Mar. 16th, 2009 04:48 am (UTC)
Eh. I need to at least be a little better about not obsessing about things I can't do anything about, but it has been nice to have you and other people I love here for me while I'm upset. If nothing else, all the suck this year has helped me appreciate who has been there for me and has made time for me.
d_c_m
Mar. 16th, 2009 11:56 am (UTC)
*big hug*
bzero
Mar. 18th, 2009 08:47 am (UTC)
Thanks. Much needed lately!
slave_stasha
Mar. 16th, 2009 01:23 pm (UTC)
Looking on the bright side is the way to go in this situation, i know that is not easy at all sometimes, but you have a slew of wonderful people around you, and they are there for you and care about you a lot :)

You are super lucky to actually know people who want to play D&D! i <3 D&D and miss playing tons (At one point i was playing three different adventures three times a week!) but neither Aaron or i know anyone who wants to play.

Heh Bones is another awesome show, Same with the Big Bang Theory!

i haven't been on KoL much either, i ascended and didn't prepare ahead of time and so it's just been frustrating the hell out of me, so i only log on every couple days or so. Ronin sucks!
bzero
Mar. 18th, 2009 08:54 am (UTC)
My week is getting a little better, and I'm getting a better handle on focusing on the positive instead of dwelling on the negative. Part of it is expectations-management, and part of it is just that I really am surrounded by wonderful people who go out of their way to make me happy, and it's selfish and shitty of me not to appreciate it.
towanda000
Mar. 17th, 2009 05:40 pm (UTC)
So, how did it go last night with M?
Feel free to call if you'd prefer to answer that one via voice. :)
bzero
Mar. 18th, 2009 08:55 am (UTC)
*grin* Dinner went well. We still haven't figured out when we're going to see each other between her overtime and my late work schedule, but I'm hopeful that we'll figure something out.
towanda000
Mar. 18th, 2009 11:11 am (UTC)
Good, I am glad it was a positive experience.
bzero
Mar. 18th, 2009 08:17 pm (UTC)
Definitely, and just being to hang out and be normal with each other again takes a tremendous strain off my mind.
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